Sophie was written during my second year at university. Oxford colleges let you live in during your
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first and third years, but during your second, you're thrown to the mercy of Oxford's many
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landlords and landladies and expected to fend for yourself.
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In the life of a student, 'living out' is a combination of previously undreamt-of freedom and a kind of
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baptism by fire: loads of people have never cooked for themselves / changed a fuse / lived with six
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other people in the house / shared a fridge / worn seven jumpers because they can't afford the
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heating before. My 'digs' (accommodation) was way, way out of central Oxford, and though it had
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the advantage of being a lot cheaper than many places, it had the undeniable disadvantage of a
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live-in landlady. A very old, very mad Italian lady, she made most of the traditional student
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passtimes difficult and many impossible. I quickly learnt to spend my time elsewhere - crashing on
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people's floors, scrounging in their kitchens, and for the second and third terms pretty much
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moving in with my girlfriend (who had a college room and was studying like crazy for Finals, so
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probably didn't notice me all that much). But every now and again I'd return to digs, brave the
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landlady, and add another five thousand words to Sophie.
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The story in Sophie covers some of the ground that I felt I'd touched on in After the Hole, but
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which I also felt I could have explored more fully in that book. It's again a story with a dark heart: the
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driving impulse behind it is one of obsession - Mattie's obsession with Sophie, his sister, and
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Sophie's obsession with protecting what she sees as her little brother's innocence, against a world
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which she knows has robbed her of hers.
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This time, though, I wanted to get up much closer to the central character. While After the Hole had
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left Martyn scheming in the shadows, concentrating instead on his victims, Sophie was intended
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to redress the balance by taking us right into the life and mind of someone capable of truly
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terrifying things. Sophie's saving grace - if she has one - is that she genuinely believes that what
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she's doing is for Mattie's good, even though we know that years later it will have left him mentally
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scarred and desperate to force her to confront her responsibility for his state. Emotionally, then, I
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was aiming for something a little less clear-cut than After the Hole, where Martyn is never explored
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enough to allow the reader to sympathise with him in any meaningful way. With Sophie, the trick
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was to make the reader simultaneously repulsed by and compassionate towards this child.
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It was also with Sophie that I realised that, in writing about children, I need not be writing a
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children's book. The territory of childhood is central to the novel (and remains central to The
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Dandelion Clock) but the import of the story isn't, I hope, childish. This was good news for me,
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because I was acutely aware (at the grand old age of 21 or so) that I had nothing of any interest of
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sense to say about the adult world. I wasn't in it, hadn't seen much of it; I couldn't imagine
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attempting a novel with adult characters. There wasn't really much choice except to write about
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children. Realising that this needn't be an impediment - might, actually, be a strength I could make
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my own - was tremendously reassuring.
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Sophie, then, feels to me like the sister novel to After the Hole: exploring a similar territory in terms
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of psychology, from a different angle.
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